last saturday..my mind was all set to perform my best as bay ambassador as my sis and mum are at the gallery watching..more or less ready to perform my best..yeah.. i was pretty glad that i remembered my dance step all the way till the last min of our 2-minutes item..jyeah...tats the way,hidayu!! patting my shlders..
red sector was pretty quiet as expected but i think i've done my best throughout..left 3 to 4 shows left to actual day...cool but sad at the same time...cant get to meet again..cluster e!! bay ambassadors!!
went bck for dinner...after which we must get bck to marina bay for finale...and this is my worst fear...nt fear of the finale but then i saw sumone tat i wanted to avoid...holy-shit!! why him?? i have wanted to avoid him as much as i have to but why must he be so near to me?? i hope he didnt see me and will not see me nor approach me throughout the upcoming shows and my precious actual day...i dont want the spirit that i have in me for the shows fade jux bcoz of him...
im not being egoistic but i jux cant forget him...he made me suffer for loving him...why does love hurt so much when is all abt loving sumone?? i cn deny i still love him and he is a nice guy i would say...but i jux dont like the way he keep the relationship gg and thats the reason why i call our relationship off...im the kind of girl that i will speak up if i dont like and i dont like to follow guys instructions blindly...
i avoid him bcoz i know when i do i cant focus fully to lessons all i do is think abt him...obsessed ryte?? lyke a mad woman...i know...i hope i dont..again...
my point is, dont take the risk to relationship...if you able to juggle, then good for you...if not then dont...love will come to you definitely..believe in fate...
love...makes me tired when things you dont want happen in your love lyfe...haiz..haiz
