Im supposed to be out now running errands but then i dont feel lyke it.. I've been lyke this since last week.. only god understands my situatn..
I felt that is better im at home then wandering outside aimlessly.. Im not a homely person but i guessed that im labeled as that since.. argh.. you dont wanna know..
perhaps i will jux go out tmr or the day after tmr or even next wk.. mann, this jux sux larr...
the days may change on the calendar and pple are running for tyme to do things ryte.. but my days goes the same...nothing to do... sleeping tyme is one after another for me..
i feel lyke dumping/throwing my phone..wanna know why?? coz its has been ringing since last wk...truly sux isnt it??
i know, i know..i always wanted to ring my best budds or my close associates but then i may be a nuisance coz on the other hand i may be disturbing'em too...
i hate to see myself rot or spoilt coz i love myself so much.. if i dont love myself, then who will??
most of the tyme, its me who pick myself up, its me who keep my spirit high and its me who keeps myself happy all tyme other than my friends..
Guess wad?? this always happens to me when i have e most leisure of tyme then other pple in e world..
im missing sumone badly... he's not one of my ex's..but he knows one of my ex's.. at a certain pt of tyme..we had a small cnversatn together.. me,him and my ex..gawd!!
but i dont really know him that much at tat tyme coz i only saw my ex.. devoted to my ex.. well, love is blind...yeah,yeah!wadeva! bck to him.. i only realised and remembered him when i saw him at a functn.. haiyaa..i think at that pt time he knows that im attached..damn!!
thnx to my ex coz he told all my mates that i was attach to him.. when i attend that functn...all e girls who knew me went to me and ask.. i was so furious..i went to my ex and asked him..why he did this to me?? coz he promised me our relatnship has to be a low profile one.. he said he cldnt help it..same goes when we break up.. he told everyone also.. bck to him: why didnt he approach me directly... i will say im single ..im willing to take the risk..heheh! besides my relatnship was on the rocks alrdy.. jux waiting me to blow the rock away and that's it well, i guess i was too obsessed with my ex that i ignored all other guys... shit!! if only i cld turn bck the tyme...hissh!! wasted.. bck to him: its nyce knowing him larr basically.. he is nt bad looking,very nyce,very understanding e best abt him is he is such a gentleman..haiz!! *flashback* thats my weakness..i cn fall easily for gentleman guys.. sometymes i feel that he likes me sometymes not.. he's still single and im totally single, i dont see any reason why not ?? but he didnt cntacted me more than a month now... im waiting for him to cntact me.. as usually its me who initiated the cnversatn.. i've tried this before..he took a mth to cntact me bck.. so if this tyme he go beyond a mth... Hidayu,babe, something is jux very wrong.. so start worrying..
