well, lyfe then was productive untill everything came crashing down untill i dont have a penny to my name...well, im a spender...

feel so odd and boring..and at this age i havent achieve anything yet in lyfe...im so disappointed and shameful of myself..i cant afford to see my grandparents also untill they complaint not seeing mr for so long and they missed me...im aware of that but i cant afford..until last wkend i finally see them for my cousins wedding...aku nih syahdu siket walaupun muke legend and fierce...i cried when they asks why i nvr visit them...its not that i dont want..rase berat nk pegy je kene pakse baru pegy...i mean malukan orang tau pasal keburukan kte...mmg dgn family tkyah malu tpi im private person..aku tak akan ckp pape unless org initiate..

thats about me that i think my mom dont understand...she likes to share wherelse me i rather keep unless really nid to...even about my current bf ive yet to tell her but shes suspecting it alrdy...actually im set that unless i get married than its appropriate to tell.. 

but i give in to my previous ex..hes a family oriented guy..he does everything he could for his family..more to his family than his life...like my dad...tpi jodoh tak sekuat rase syg..tuh je yang dpt dikata...but im greatful to know,to have him as part of my life..thank god and thank you for loving me..appreciate all the things youve done for me..i pray for your happiness and youll find a better girl than me..;)

and for SD, if you happens to read this,

i accept you for wad you are and i love you...happens that you want to know about my history, ill be willing to share...but if not, our journey has started.. 

Be with me